The air conditioner was sending shivers underneath my nightgown, the duvet was soft but did very little to stop the shrieking cold, I had used the toilet four times since I laid down, and I just liked the feeling of the cold tiles on my bare feet. I got up to go the fifth time when Nsa sat up.

‘Hm Ekemini, do you ever feel like too many good things are happening to us?

I looked at her in disbelief, I pretended to think about what she had said, Ekemini was four years younger than me and she was the weird child, she wrote in a diary that she called a journal and was very timid, especially around our mother.

‘Too many good things?’ I asked again to clarify

‘Urm- yes because daddy just got promoted- all of a sudden we moved to Lagos from Uyo and here we are in this fine house even with AC and I am so happy Ekemini, I feel like my heart will burst’ she stuttered as she struggled to complete her words.

‘Well- then are you not supposed to be happy? Shey you are always praying for things to be better?'

‘Urm yes but when good things happen a lot then a bad thing will have to happen- I don’t know I can just feel it’ she replied.

'No Ekimini, when good things happen - good things continue to happen. God is not interested in taking us through highs just so that we can experience how it feels to fall. Last time I checked, the person enticing people from Pinnacles was the devil. Don't be too quick to come down from the blessing Kem Kem. You can trust God, He did not take you up the mountain so that you can appreciate the view and push you when you're not looking. I mean I may do that but God will not. Our Father does not pleasure in our suffering, He is not out to get us. Surely, Abraham did not climb up that mountain with a blessing only to walk down without his blessing, trust Him'

'But - but what if all of this finishes Nsa' she asked me.

'He is God, not Godmother, his blessings are not wishes that vanish at twelve midnight. Stay longer and dance Kem Kem, stop looking over your shoulder for when God would decide to turn off the song'

She had tears in her eyes.

She laid down and with a small smile, she continued to dance.

I laid down but got up again to use the bathroom because I liked the feeling of the cold tiles on my feet and also, the bathroom was the only place I could cry without Ekimini hearing me.

I too was overwhelmed, I had not smiled so much in a week. I stepped in and was surprised to see my mom right there on my spot, crying- she smiled at me.

'Nsa, our God did not fail'

'He did not mommy, He cannot'

We held ourselves as God held us.