
Who else had their first kiss in their late 20s?
Growing up, i hated the idea of being married, none the less to a man.
I hated the concept of childbirth, why should i go through such pain to bring a kid into this cruel world?
I made the resolve never to be involved with men. I could not stand touching them and the mental image of kissing them made me unlock levels of disgust i never knew i had.
I had unsolved trauma from abuse endured as a child the concept of intimacy with anyone scared me
How did I survive through university? Well I was broke and was not certainly the type to attract men or anyone else and i thank the lord for that.
I had couple of guys my age that wanted me but i made my stance clear. Only to reject someone and got labelled the lesbian of the class.
Anonymous messages were on the rise and i had the allegations brewing.
The pressure made me almost go on a date with this boy in another department only to find out it was all a bet on who could turn the 'lesbian' around.
I stayed clear of anything romantic and looking back, i do not know how i managed through that.
Embarrassing enough to have your first kiss at 27 and being a complete loser about it as well.
Self doubt was at an all high and i needed to get it out of the way and it was not with a man yet again.
However cupid really shot me at first sight when i laid my eyes on this woman. i just knew staying away was not an option and i am eternally grateful.
I still get shy when watching movies with explicit content around her,i get nervous initiating a kiss/make out session due to the past which i know i should not let interfere with my current happiness, i still do not feel confident in my skin and this is years and years of mockery meted on me.
So much for a late bloomer huh?
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