It came as a single light in the far dark of the silent sea

A lone glow in the hopeless darkness of the blank area

A sudden urge to reach out to it, a source of light to keep me alive.

It drew near and I heard myself sigh of relief,

a false picture of freedom yet at the moment I sought it out with vigor.

I reached out to it - my only source of light - and sucked it like a hungry baby finally having milk.

What I hadn't known was that it doesn't get any better from here.

Gradually I called it home, peace and happiness

My desperation pulling me forward to walk further into the dark water, reaching out to the false light.

I heard my voice whisper a warning, my ears chose to ignore it

My head wandered in delusions - imaginations of a life that would never be.

And slowly I fell in love with you, ignorant and willingly so, choosing to listen to your lies.

You were the distraction I needed to turn my eyes from my crumbling life, 

A reality I will face later when all your love and lies dissappear with you.

I have tasted Yoruba made stew and well seasoned suya but neither of them contain the amount of pepper you've showed me.

I comforted myself and embraced my loneliness,

I tried to forget all the promises and whispered confessions

I put all the blame on you but within I knew your shady intentions from start,

I chose to be blinded by love.

A burning ache in my head... 

I realized you were gone, with no traces of how you came 

Your voice still fresh in my head

The burning ache frustratingly present. 

I longed for the time we spent together 

I whispered prayers to God to bring you back 

The ache pounding my head... 

Slowly the anger slipped in, 

I became angry at you for making me believe in love, for the deceit and pain

For the heartbreak and the ache in my head... 

I was angry at myself too, for falling too fast 

For believing the words you said, 

I was angry for thinking anything good such as love could happen to me. 

Weeks passed and the feelings hovering around me passed away with it, 

I moved and lived like you don't exist anymore, 

I tell myself everyday that you've become my past

I try to remember the moments we shared 

But it is all hazy and unclear, my brain dumped it all in the farthest side of my memory. 

Years later I sit and watch you kneel and propose,

The words "will you marry me" slipping out of your lips smoothly like butter

The black box in your hands revealing a glistening diamond,

The anticipation of a "yes" visible in your eyes,

The smile on your face with your hands holding out the ring.

I watch the eager people around taking out their phone to capture the moment,

But I don't feel anything, nor joy nor sadness

My heart was empty of feelings towards you,

A complete stranger you have become

So I walked out of the restaurant, breathing in fresh air

I heard a loud chorus of "awwwn" behind me,

Your woman must have accepted the ring with a wide happy grin

You've finally proposed marriage to her and she said yes,

A far-fetched wish I once imagined for myself with you.