It’s the eighth day of this intense preparation, and honestly, it feels like I still haven’t done enough.

There’s doubt, quiet and creeping, but there’s also this deep, almost aching desire for a better life.

That’s what keeps me going. Or at least, tries to.

How do I stay focused and keep pushing through?

Maybe the first thing is to remind myself that this feeling is normal.

At this point, it’s common to feel like:

I’ve barely scratched the surface.

I’m not moving fast enough.

I keep swinging between hope and “what if I fail?”

I need to Zoom Out.

I need to remind myself of why I’m doing this. What does the other side of this effort look like?

A visa stamp? Peace of mind? A job that feels like purpose? My Friends? A new scenery ? Stability?

That’s my “why.” I can’t lose sight of that.

I will make the day small.

Sometimes I try to hold the whole mountain in my hands. No wonder I feel tired.

Today, I’ll make it small again.

Just one thing.

One task.

One completed topic.

Something that moves me forward, even a little.

Take My Power Back.

I’m not behind. I’m building.

And even when I doubt myself, I still show up. That’s becoming part of who I am.

So I say to myself:

"I may not feel ready, but I’m still moving. And I’m not giving up on myself.”

I will count the Effort.

I’ll keep track of what I’ve done, not just what’s left.

Every small step matters. Every page, every quiz, every video.

Reset When I Need To.

When I feel overwhelmed, I don’t have to push through with grit alone.

I can pause.

I can stretch.

I can drink some water.

And then come back to the table with a steadier mind.

I’m not stuck. I’m being stretched.

This resistance? This pressure?

It’s what growth feels like when you’re getting serious.

When you’re almost becoming the person you've been working toward.

And I’m not done yet.